cheese's silly page

gallery!!

please note: some of my work focuses on mental health themes (dissociation, intrusive thoughts, identity issues, anxiety, fatigue) and may contain colors that may cause eyestrain.

there's also violence and an insect but they're behind a warning. i intend to update this with a completely different layout that should allow me to "tag" things as well as go into more detail with them. i think when i rework this i should have a better way to display descriptions and context too.
all images link to a bigger version of the work on press.

2026

song-inspired works

music seems to inspire me a lot lately so this became a bit of a series, along with two pieces from 2025.

person sitting, one knee up, another leg bent but on the surface, looking towards the viewer without any emotion. the half of their face that's facing the viewer is missing, as if it shattered away, leaving a dark hollow space inside. inside there is something resembling a black hole, except dripping orange liquid from it, pooling in the area of their neck, and dripping downwards from across their shoulder - changing color there as it flows further to a purple - and chin, a few drops on the bent arm supporting it. from the hole, a large amount of colorful clouds and squiggles emerge, some with slightly more detail, crying or screaming or baring their teeth, some more abstract, no obvious purpose to them. one such cloud is bumping against their cheek. the person looks grey in comparison to the clouds floating, even their t-shirt and shorts are desaturated. some of the hair is falling over the gap in their head. the surface they're sitting on is also quite desaturated but filled with differently colored pools at the edges of the visible surface. digital drawing of someone floating in space, one arm outreached towards someone else's as if they were offering a dance, despite the pose of the person visible not suggesting such, instead looking more as if they're trying to catch themselves while falling, an unfocused, lost expression on their face. their entire body is covered with glowing cracks, a large four-pointed one resembling a star at their chest. a slightly translucent cape hangs loosely off their shoulders, in motion because of their implied fall. there's many many stars around, with a large amount of tiny ones gathered near their eyes. the entire drawing is done in a lot of purples and blues and pinks, somewhat similar to the album cover of the song, yet feeling different, lines done softly mimicking crayon, and the coloring somewhat reminiscent of wet watercolor. the person is dark blue, with many specs of glow all over their body under the upper layer of their skin, and has purple shoulder-length hair. their cape has a hood and is pink-orangish, the colour coming off as more one or the other depending on how light hits it. the background also has a faint planet with a ring on the right.
"I never liked you" (violence, minor amounts of blood) a beast and a person fighting. the beast is violently biting the person's neck, and the person is angrily gripping the beast by the neck with one arm, and pulling so hard on an its ear that it tore with the other. behind the two, other silhouettes appear, a beast screaming and a person desperately biting an arm in front of them, another arm pulling them by the ear. the whole picture is in bright colors, coloring strokes visible.

2 part comic

  1. a four-panel comic. four people are chatting happily. three of them are colored with one solid hue, the fourth is a patchwork of the others' colors, plus a neutral light grey filling gaps between. when i'm around others, i gain the same 'colors' as they have. of course, this is not something i replicate completely accurately. but it's all held together with blank space. it's close enough. the patchwork person leans against a shut door, still smiling. but as i shut the door... as i turn off the phone.. they slide down, now sitting with knees up and hands holding their head. tired. colors mostly dripped away and instead they're filled with that light grey. ...slowly, the colors start to melt away. more and more of the blank space shows. there is nothing to copy. no one to pretend to be. they stand against the mirror. the reflection looks dissatisfied, almost disgusted. the colors dripped away now and there are only faint stains of more colors than before. this text is in a different font. a persistent thought haunts your mind each time you look in the mirror. this is what i am supposed to call 'myself'. yet in the moments where you're supposed to have the most clarity about what that means,you see nothing but an empty shell, stained from constant attempts to dye it with the colors of those who surround you. you don't know who you're supposed to be.
  2. follow up to the previous comic. 'something feels wrong'. a closeup of someone biting their hand. there's circling squiggles near them. 'you don't know what it is, but the blankness you see of yourself is getting to you particularly badly today. 'you try to ignore it.', they're looking away from the squiggling wrongness, but still seem disturbed. 'it persists.' 'so you try to take care of yourself.' they have a bowl full of something in one hand, and are poking at it with a fork with another, still chewing. the wrongness still surrounds them.you eat the dish you like.' in an isometric view of a bathroom shower, they stand, back bent at 90 degrees, head pressed against the wall, arms hanging down. water pours over them intensely. the wrongness circles and circles at a slight distance. 'you shower.' they lie in bed with open tired eyes, the squiggling all around them. 'you sleep, but it persists.' they're falling into somewhere darker, closer to the color of the wrongness, yet it still visibly clouding around them. 'so you try to dive even deeper into it, letting it consume you,all in the hopes it will become more tolerable.' 'it doesn't work. it never does.' they're standing, starting to lean in one direction, very tired and fed up, hand digging intensely into their cheek, some of the skin pulled away between their thumb and pointer finger. 'you need to do something before you claw your face away in attempts to get rid of the itch bothering you.' 'but you've tried all you could think of. there is nothing left.' they stand in front of a phone that's larger than they are. there is a bucket full of bright colours protruding from the corner of the screen. they step in its direction, hands nearing the edge of the phone. differently looking narration goes, 'and so...' they raise their arms and turn thebucket over their head, smiling with that same fed up expression. the colours are running down, splashing out of the bucket rapidly. 'I GIVE UP.'

2025

 an orange fox pouncing a capybara lying down relaxed. its eyes are closed halfbody of lupine (a character of mine), intended as part of a reference sheet. they have long wavy purple hair and wear a big sunhat as well as purple a blue weirdly shapen top (it's kind of wrapping around them like they have a belt on but also around each sleeve. i swear i thought this out a long time ago and now i have no idea how it's supposed to work) worn over a dark green long-sleeve shirt. they are pale and have light blue eyes. a fluffy cat sitting sideways with their head turned to the viewer. it is dark purple with light yellow spots a portrait of the same tricolor cat in a simpler/"cleaner" style. they are framed in purple with two small butterflies to the top right of them and two small hearts to the bottom left of them uncolored sketch for a design of oolong (character of mine) in chapter 3 (unspecified of what). it's short and has a freckled face, short hair, and cat-like ears and eyes, as well as a small fang poking out of its mouth. it has a large sheathed sword on its back. he wears a sleeveless shirt 'for freer art movement' and was talked out of wearing shorts by colleagues. large bracelets for wrist support and cargo pants with large amount of pockets. wears suspenders and a large belt that work as sword sheath holders. the shoes are not detailed but have a note pointing to them saying 'idk how to portray but one of those sport/hiking sandals'. sketch made of very very messy and chaotic lines of someone colored in bright yellow gripping their head while on their knees, leaning down, behind them, slightly above, is another messy silhouette in dark grey also gripping their head, scribbly eyes looking nowhere in particular. the coloring of both is also very messy sketch of cheese on their knees, hands raised up as they're trying to hold up their melting head. most of cheese's outline is in a mix of colors, but the goopy head is green. a person floating, propelled upwards by the massive hole in their chest and stomach, so filled with a scream it looks like scribbles. around are many abstract bits of color flying away chaotically. the person is outlined in very messy and multicolored bright lines despit being drawn in grey, those two sketches not aligning between themselves perfectly. a series of very simple monochrome sketches, arranged in a comic-ish manner. a person sits on a chair, really slid down the back of it, legs pushing against the kitchen counter with a pan on it. they kinda have an empty gaze and think 'my fatigue is getting worse.' next they're sitting at a table with a laptop on a box. their head and part of upper body is lying on the table, one arm near it, one hanging down. they look more tired than in the previous sketch. the repeating thought is, 'my fatigue is getting worse.' slightly overlapping it is another thought, 'am i imagining things'. third sketch. they now lie in bed, pillow pushed a bit diagonally across the wall and bed, so they can look at the laptop on top of them. thoughts of 'my fatigue is getting worse.' are above it, overlapping is 'just get up and stop making excuses', and below it, also mixed with the text, 'i don't think i'm supposed to feel like this i need to do something'. next they're talking to somebody, 'i've been having pretty bad fatigue and joint pain lately.', only to receive in response from someone off-screen, 'sorry can't help you lol go take some iron maybe you'll feel better' . they sit in the shower, hugging the knees to their chest. '...fuck. what now.' '...i'm so tired.' in the final sketch, they lie curled up in bed upside down, leg touching the pillow, with a distressed expression and huge bags under their eyes. the text overlaying the image has become barely comprehensible now, feeling loud, becoming a mix of 'MY FATIGUE IS GETTING WORSE', 'TIRED' and self-depreciation 'dramatic', 'am i though', and cut-off by the edge of the screen 'I SHOULD' sketches of someone in various exhausted poses. lying down, sitting up, leaning against the wall of the image. also one unfinished portrait, tired as well.

song-inspired pieces

someone (presumedly cheese) falling backwards, holding onto an album dearly yet from which many photos seem to be floating away. with their other hand they're gripping someone by the wrist, unclear if trying to catch themself or dragging them along. they are smiling while crying, looking kind of scared.
the chitin jacket (large insect as the main focus) was supposed to be a part of an animated storyboard but i ended up discarding the idea.
in the shape of a person a very large and long millipede curls. whether there is a person beneath the chirin cannot be seen.

"dissociation doodles" series, part 3 and 4

sketches done in a specific state of mind intentionally using only one color that became a reoccuring theme for me during times i feel worse.

in raspberry pink. one is almost entirely iilegible, mostly a circle of a head possible to make out. one features someone with medium-length hair and bangs seemingly trying to look at their hands, but one of their arms is double posed, simultaneously brought to their face and pointed somewhere away. their head connects to shoulders that don't connect to the rest of the body, the body connecting to shoulders not connecting to the head. question marks between those. there's another two small sketches, one with someone sitting sideways with knees up, one hand used to prop themselves, another hugging their knees, looking tired and captioned 'You're not real.', ambiguous as to whether referring to the viewer or the person portrayed. the other sketch features someone lying on their stomach, holding up their head with their hands, empty look. different colors are being spilled over them like paint. there's also a very simple but big face of cheese. in orange. a hoof, a person with a bowtie on the back of their head, an odd creature with a prolonged triangular snout wearing a hat and coat and covered in either fluff or feathers. and a messy disjointed sketch of what resembles a cat.

2 part piece

  1. a mundane grey bedroom. at the back of it through a window there is a bright pink-red silhouette of a person staring at someone sitting on the bed. the latter has their gaze directed towards the window, but they're turned to the side. neither has any defining features. the window frame is the same pink-red.
  2. meant to accompany the previous piece (home?). a different room, from the top. it's covered in scribbly red-pink eyes. slightly off-center lies a person, one leg brought close to them, an arm gripping it, the other gripping their face. they're distressed. defined in messy lines and coloring, a mix of yellow and something more tinted pink. there is no one else there.

fanart for In Stars and Time

loop from in stars and time with one hand on their hip smiling in a fake way against an (abstractly and monochromly) firey background, with the caption 'Sparkle off! It's Thursday! Forget who you are', referencing a meme with jerma and the same caption portrait of siffrin from in stars and time. they're looking in the general direction of the viewer. the frame has little stars on it

2024

 a reference for a fluffy tricolor anthro cat, they are blepping. the tricolor is of light purple, yellow and white. they have a butterfly pattern over their right eye and heterochromatic eyes (the right purple and the left yellow) and two dark purple spots near both of their eyes, with the outermost left one being the shape of a heart same tricolor cat sitting with their knees up

"dissociation doodles" series, part 1

part 2 left out intentionally.

contrasting black on white. a realistic heart with a hole in it the shape of a symbolic heart, cheese lying on their back upside-down on a bed, two cats made of messy lines, cheese clouded by many thoughts looking upset, a person hugging something to their chest with an arrow and text pointing to them 'YOU. IT'S YOU. IT WILL ALWAYS BE YOU'

fanart for In Stars and Time

siffrin sitting with a happy expression, eye closed, blepping. this is referencing the second version of the merch plushie that released. captioned 'have you seen them? now you have!'

also this animated storyboard to the song "Me & You" by Tally Hall. (youtube link)

study sketches, one session (18-01-2024)

30 second

some kind of large animal lying down. maybe a hippo. very rushed rhino standing side-view dog, potentially a borzoi or similar, catching a frisbee in air cat lying down lionness lying down horse standing cat stretching? kitten hanging on from a branch of sorts some big feline hunched drinking water small bulldog sitting giving a side-eye

1 minute

deer jumping? cat sitting, one front paw slightly raised antelope looking to the side mountain goat lying down rhino walking

5 minutes

tiger sitting hunching. lots of cheek and neck fluff tabby cat sitting, attention captured by something behind the screen. the cat has a collar

10 minutes

very fluffy and big-eared bunny

2023

 rook (character of mine) twirling with one hand raised above them and one leg bent backwards. they wear a light yellow-orange tophat and coat, and themselves are a dark purple with what looks like big pointy ears and cheek fluff. they also wear a white mask with a big light teal eye on it and two smaller circles to the sides of said eye a chestnut leaf and flower formation. something between a painted work and a sketch, using a lot of messy lines to color in things and lacking a clear outline